Thursday, March 29, 2018

Atonement.

What a life.










Recently I went to Santa Barbara for a bachelorette weekend and boy oh boy, was it something. Now I normally roll with a crew gay guys where we can HANG, we can party til 8am and be solid. There's a different kind of stamina you need when you've got 8 ladies and botomless mimosas.

It's amazing how hanging out with a bunch of girls just makes you feel loved, a sense of community, and flat out gorgeous. There's curlers being passed around, shoes being borrowed, clothing being swapped, make-up everywhere, body parts exposed and free, and lots of dance parties.
Don't get me wrong, I am a gay guy internally ALL THE WAY, but its comforting to hang out with a bunch of girls who you can just relate to. Sometimes you just have to sit in a hot tub drinking wine and crying about boys with your girlfriends.

This Santa Barbara trip was different from the last time I was there. This one I learned a lot about myself and what I can handle. Sometimes it's nice to relive old memories but I learned that I'm here now and I have to create new ones.

Next month I turn 25! I vow that 25 will be the year of amazing memories, exploration, pursuing dreams, being uncomfortable and atonement. It's time I make myself my most important priority. It's time I stop making excuses and start making shit happen. I've been living in this bubble of comfort that has kept me complacent. No one's to blame but me. So as a 25 year old adult-child I will forgive myself and try to atone. I'm a much different person than when I was 20. I only hope that everything I've been through will help me evolve into this super human woman who is bomb dot com and is worth a million puppies. Fingers crossed. TBD.

Rosy.

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